My sweet baby,
There is this empty space in my heart that is waiting ever so patiently to be filled once you make your long awaited entrance into the world. Your daddy and I already love you more than words could ever express, and in this journey of uncertainly, that love is strong, and real, and purely undeniable and unconditional.
You see my sweet little one, your mommy and daddy are special. God knew that we were strong, and that we could handle a little longer of a wait than other parents might have to. And you know what, that’s okay. Because in our family you will learn, that we trust in God’s timing, even when we don’t understand it, even when we get anxious or angry, and even when it makes us really, really sad.
I want you to know the story of how you were conceived, and how badly mommy and daddy wanted you to be our little one. And I want you to know how many people prayed for you, because if there is one thing that you should know, it is that God has been given an earful over the last few years, by people who are rooting for you, and for us.
We have been waiting for you for three and a half years now. It started with so much excitement and anticipation that first year. You will laugh one day when I tell you how many pregnancy tests I took in hopes you were coming. The second year was a little harder. We found out that you might need some help to make it to us. I wasn’t afraid and neither was daddy. The third year I started to get sad because I really longed for you, and I wondered why God was taking his time. But I knew that great things come to those who wait, even though I get frustrated when other people tell me that all the time. I still know it to be true.
Well, a few months ago God did something wonderful. He led mommy and daddy to a wonderful doctor who was going to help us get to you. We worked really hard to make a miracle happen through something called IVF. I can’t wait to tell you all about it someday. Mommy had to give her tummy shots, and daddy even had to help give shots too!
Let me tell you something about your daddy. You are hands down the luckiest little one on the planet, because your daddy is the best daddy in the whole wide world. He is the reason mommy made it this far and hasn’t given up hope that one day you will be in our arms. He is so strong, and his faith is endless. And sometimes mommy leans on him more than I think he knows, because he is so brave. I cannot wait for you to meet him, because you will fall in love with him just like I did.
Early this week was the end of our first try with IVF. It didn’t work. We were and are still heartbroken that we will have to wait even longer for you. But, do you remember what I told you? About how our little family believes in the timing of God? So we will wait.
My sweet baby. I want you to know that we will wait as long as we have to wait. We will try as hard as we have to try. And we will pray as much as we have to pray to get you. I cannot wait to feel you in my tummy, and hold you in my arms, and celebrate your little life. A life that will be cherished more than you will ever understand.
You are already so loved, and I hope we get to meet you soon.
Love,
Mommy
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Epsita says
This is so beautiful, Ashley.
I have never read such an amazing letter from a Mom to her child as we wait for their arrival. You just made my day with those wonderful words. You are one awesome inspiration and a Great Mom. Do not give up on hope. It will happen- and very soon!
Sending you my prayers that I whispered into God’s ears right now for you, a big tight hug, and lots of wishes to both of you. You guys are both wonderful. I will wait to read your happy news. Keeping my faith and fingers crossed.
Hugs
Sandra Lillard says
Love, hugs and prayers for you two.
Sarah | She Holds Dearly says
Ashley, you are such a good mom! I wish I could give you the biggest hug right now. Your letter made me cry and cry. Thank you for being brave and vulnerable with us. You are wonderful..
Patty says
I am not sure I have ever read anything as beautiful or said with such love as what this post contains. I love you even more and we have never met. I always gets a vibe from you when you post and I know just how special you are and how everything will fall in place. I kept praying as I was reading this for a different ending, even though I had an inkling. I have such hugs for you and only wish there was something I could do.
Amy Salazar says
This is so precious, prayers to you????
Glenda says
Keep on keeping on….. you will get there….. one way or another. God is good…… all the time. Sweet stories help us all.
Dave says
WOW, I have never been more proud of you then I am right now. Your strength, resilience and faith in God should be admired by all.
You are so intelligent and talented, I feel so lucky and blessed that you are my daughter.
There is no doubt in my mind that God will bless you and Jorden with a child or two, as there couldn’t be a more deserving, loving couple than the both of you.
Keep up the fight, Grandpa and everyone else is in your corner.
Love the both of you so much!!
Erin says
My Ash my grand baby is going to be so blessed to have such loving, strong parents!! This is so beautiful the tears are flowing. It is about Gods timing. My sweet grand baby everyone will be patient for your arrival!! We will trust God and just know that you will have so much love!! Ashley and Jordan Love you with all my heart!!!
Karlee Hiatt says
Oh my! Ashely, this is so beautiful! You have a magic way with words! You are so incredibly talented! And it’s so true, we all believ in Gods timing!!! I’m so excited for this baby! I love you so much!!! Xoxo
Connie says
Our family knows your story as well. Our son and DIL waited 3 years, had a miscarriage, a failed IVF and had just decided that they would not be parents because they were tired. But God knew better. A couple of months later, they were expecting their first child, our first grandchild. He is a miracle sent straight from God. he arrived last year on my birthday! This week we learned that God will bless them again this November. Please do not give up, God does know when the best time is for each family. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. You will be in my prayers. Our family is proof that prayer works all the time.
Patti says
What an amazing story to share with the world, I’m crying!! You are such an amazing mommy and your baby is going to have amazing parents! My heart aches for you but I know God will give you your sweet little miracle! Much love to you guys in this journey! Xoxoxo
Julie Briones says
And God is good… even through this. You wrote this so well, Ashley… and your are bringing HIM much glory through this trial, and waiting time. Praying for peace, contentment, and continued strength from the One that will withhold no good thing! Throwing you some sisterly love, because we have been adopted by the same Father. <3
Grandma says
Waiting for you is the hardest part of this journey. When you arrive little one, just know that the love for you is beyond your imagination. You have all sorts of family and friends just aching to see and touch and love you. Love will be something that will never be in short supply ❤️
Lisa says
Chills and tears. This is the sweetest thing ever. You are one string lady, and I know you will be one amazing mom!
chris from Midwest Cottage and Finds says
I am in tears right now reading this….I would like you to know my heart aches for you and your husband. But I love that you feel the time will be right when you finally hear the words you are wanting to hear. you are in my prayers.